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" Let your past make you better, not bitter. "
I'm Millie,, a 17 year old equine student from a small village just outside of London. I seem to struggle a lot when it comes to talking about and expressing my feelings and emotions. Despite the fact that doing so would benefit me in life and how i cope with situations,, i just cant seem to do it. So i'm going to try starting this blog. About what? No idea! Just about life really,, journeys i might go on and choices i make.....
I ordered these last week and they arrived this morning! ive never really enjoyed reading or writing much untill i started this blog and now i cant get enough of it and its really lovely getting messages from my followers saying im a good writer and that they like reading my blogs posts. And after i fell in love with the film “if i stay” i found the book a d that it also had a following book called “where she went” i decided to give it a go at reading them and ill love them if they are as good as the film!

I ordered these last week and they arrived this morning! ive never really enjoyed reading or writing much untill i started this blog and now i cant get enough of it and its really lovely getting messages from my followers saying im a good writer and that they like reading my blogs posts. And after i fell in love with the film “if i stay” i found the book a d that it also had a following book called “where she went” i decided to give it a go at reading them and ill love them if they are as good as the film!

how can people just turn their feelings off like nothings happened, like no memories where made, like they were never part of your life?why is it people can walk into your life for months and then one day say they don’t care anymore and leave without a second thought or any emotion shown?

Because i cannot in anyway behave like that. my feelings and emotions and how i express them wouldn’t allow me to betray someone like that. there is no way id be about to turn off how i feel just because of a decision I’ve made in my mind. id rather care too much and hurt myself instead of not caring enough and risk hurting someone else.

be original„ be yourself

Now days way too many people are afraid to be themselves„ to be original. Being original doesn’t mean trying so hard to be different to be something your not! because the truth is that’s what everyone does hardly any one feels comfortable being who they really are so they pretend to be something they aren’t. so really the point is being yourself is original as people are worried of being judged. so by being yourself your already being something no one has been before. so stop thinking about others opinions of you and just think about what makes you happy and feel comfortable!

Hey Millie I'm new to this whole Tumblr thing & I noticed that there are no comments are there? You can't comment in a post someone else's made can you? Just thought I'd ask and I am impressed with your blogs your a very good writer.

Hii„ thankyou lovely! that means a lot that you are impressed with my blog posts because I’ve never seen myself as a good writer but i enjoy it;)

Welcome to tumblr hahaa„ No you cant make comments on others posts, however, when you reblog a post there will be a box underneath where you can write a little something either relating to the image/quote/text or in response to a previous blogger who has written something. Hope this helps you! x

I feel like my anxiety is getting worse. i know I’ve always had an issue with talking to strangers or even people I’ve met but just don’t know too well yet. but its got to the point where I don’t even wanna go out with my mates or my boyfriend really just because the thought of it scares me and i just work myself up about it before hand. 

I’m currently on the hunt for a job and have been for months so I’ve just been applying online because it means no face to face communication but thinking about it what if i do get asked for an interview? I’m screwed because I probs wouldn’t go and if i did id make a mess of it and not talk or say the wrong thing„ so the other day i tried going out and handing in my cv’s but i couldn’t do it i just broke down in the car and wouldn’t!

i really don’t understand what my problem is like i don’t want to have this issue i want to be able to go out and talk and meet people i don’t know because new people are interesting and i love the idea of getting to know someone and finding out what they are into and what they don’t like etc… but i just cant i just start to panic and get all hot and clammy to the point where i cant breath and feel like i’m going to pass out or something.

something like this is so frustrating because i want to be able to do it i just cant bring myself to!